Friday, November 27, 2009

Getting to know you... Getting to know all about you

It's so much fun to watch this little personality emerge! I love spending my days with Grace and having the chance and time to get to know her. One thing that was very apparent right in the beginning of life is how much she loves to be warm and cozy! It probably goes back to the fact that she should technically still be in the womb for another week.
Grace was very jaundice while she was in the NICU. They had her under the bili lights almost constantly for a few days. But no worries! She LOVED it. When the nurse would put the "shades" over Gracie's eyes, and turn on the lights, she would completely chill out. She looked like a little sun-bather! Even if she was mad right before the shades were put on, once her eyes were covered and the lights turned on she would just lay there and enjoy.
Nap time with dad. Grace also LOVES to be wrapped up and snuggling in someone's arms. Even if she is really upset, I can simply hold her in my arms really close for just a few seconds and she'll calm right down. I hope that lasts...
First bath! Surprisingly she didn't hate it. We've realized after a couple baths that she only likes it if the water is at least in the low 90's - she likes it nice and warm, of course! And she'll freak out unless she has a warm wash cloth over her chest and stomach area so no part of her is cold.

Giving Thanks

What are we thankful for this year? Hm... let me think...



Sunday, November 22, 2009

Graduation Day

Our sweet Gracie May finally graduated from the NICU this morning!

She was supposed to prove she could gain weight for a few days before the doctors felt she was ready to come home. After several days in a row of losing weight, and a priesthood blessing by her daddy and Grandpa Goates, Grace gained 5 grams. That was 3 nights ago. The next night she gained 15 grams, and last night she surprised everyone by gaining 50 grams! We walked into the NICU for her scheduled feeding this morning and were given the wonderful news that she was ready to be sent home!

Being a perfect baby while we put Grace in her first real outfit.
It's much easier without the cords & monitors attached to her!
Ready to go
Happy Daddy
Pure joy!
Home at last.

We're so glad to have our sweetheart home finally!
Thank you to everyone who has supported us
during these last two weeks.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Love her!

Holding on for dear life.
Sunday photos

I'm sorry - but come on - she's adorable!
Grace's "crib" in the NICU.
Latest update...

We were able to "room in" (sleep-over) with Grace overnight at the hospital on wednesday night. Usually the baby gets to go home the next day when they do the "rooming in" night, and that's what we were told at first... but then the next morning it was official that Grace was not gaining any weight... in fact, she'd lost a little bit more. Her growth chart over the last 11 days has been pretty bad. She was born at 6 lbs 3 oz, and she is at 5 lbs 15 oz right now. We're making a big push to make her eat AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE and make it possible for her to prove she can gain weight. The latest word on when she can come home is "2-3 days of weight gain" but we've also heard something about waiting until she's back up to her birth weight. We just don't know much yet - and we're trying to be patient and upbeat for her sake. It's just a waiting game...

Staying overnight with Grace was a wonderful blessing for us though. To be alone in a room as a family for the first time was so wonderful. It was a sweet experience, and yet 20 times harder to leave the hospital without her the next day. :( But we're hanging in there and we WILL get her home sometime soon. Maybe by thanksgiving?? Goodness, I hope so. We're continuing to pray for miracles! She had another priesthood blessing last night and we've asked the Lord to help her understand that she needs to eat more and stay awake during her feedings. Ryan and I know that not only is Heavenly Father aware of her, but we have also felt the presence of family members who are on the other side of the veil. They're staying close to her and I'm sure she knows as well. We're so grateful for the priesthood and for the Gospel. We have been blessed and humbled through this experience.

Stay tuned for more updates. :) Thanks everyone, for being excited to see pics and videos of her! It's all I can do as far as showing her off and keeps it fun for me during a not-so-fun time. I can't wait for you all to meet her!!

For your viewing pleasure


I know it's not the greatest quality, for some reason, but I hope you all enjoy seeing her in more than just a photo. :)

Friday, November 13, 2009

Our Beautiful Gracie May


Details of labor and delivery are in the previous post (scroll down)...

The night (possibly the morning after) she was born. I really hate these first few pictures because she looks so sick and so tired. The delivery was very traumatic for her little body and she was beginning to fight a major infection.
It kills me to see this picture.
First family picture...
Daddy is in love!
I could kiss those toes everyday!
Right before I was discharged without taking my baby with me... Probably the hardest moment of my life.
Looking MUCH better without the tubes in her mouth and nose. I even love it when she cries.
Gracie was patient with daddy's first diaper change. He did great! (he lucked out with an EASY one)
Ryan feeding Grace a bottle lastnight.
I love her sooooo much. We're going to be the best of friends.
Grandma Goates with Gracie. She was so awake and alert! She's even showing signs of dimples on each cheek... let's see if a little fat on the bones can bring them out!

Baby Time?!?!

For those of you who want all the fun details ...

On monday afternoon, November 9th, I started feeling some cramping and having pain in my lower back. I was at work, and already feeling pretty yucky/tired, but I decided to just keep working until 2:30 like usual. After talking to my mom on the phone about the cramps, I went for a little walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes while I wrote down each time I felt that same pain. Within 45 mins, I had a whole list of times ranging within 3 to 5 minutes of each other! After a little prodding from my mom, and more time passing with the same amount of "cramps" (aka contractions!), I called my doctor. The nurse told me to hurry to the hospital and have them check me. So I called Ryan home from school and we headed to St Rose De Lima Hospital.

When we got there, the nurse was absolutely sure I was just dehydrated and that she'd end up sending me home after making me drink 32 oz of water. However, as she checked me, I was indeed dilated to 4 cm already! I was actually in labor! I can't tell you how much of a shock it was to me... in fact I was pretty much freaking out. I couldn't believe it was already happening. I was still 3 1/2 weeks from the due date, I didn't have a fully packed hospital bag, and I hadn't even pre-registered at the hospital yet!

By 5:30 pm, I was admitted. By 7 pm (ish), I was already dilated to a 7 and in waaaaay too much pain to believe I could handle the rest without a little help from Mr. Epidural. We called the anisthesiologist in and he worked his magic. He was from the U of U, and it turned out my nurse was too! It made me feel right at home. :) Thank the heavens for epidurals, by the way. Anyway, the baby's heart rate in the beginning of the labor was really high (tacicardic) so the nurses were already worrying about that. Then when they broke my water, a few others major issues cropped up. My amniotic fluid was infected and the baby had been sitting in all that yucky fluid. I also was running a fever of almost 101 which meant the baby was way too hot as well. At that point, whenever I had contractions, the baby's heart rate would dip way down. They put me on an oxygen mask around 8 pm and had me moving into different positions which they hoped would help the baby's heart rate stay under control a bit better. The best position for her seemed to be with me on my hands and knees on the bed... NOT an easy task when your legs are practically numb. Ryan's friend, Justin Bruner, came to the hospital to give me a priesthood blessing sometime during this chaos because I was extremely nervous. Shortly after that, the baby's heart rate was getting so low, and taking so much time to get back up, that my incredible nurse injected me with something that was supposed to stop my contractions and help the baby survive the few more minutes until my doctor got there. Doing that probably saved the baby's life (as it was explained to me later).

By 8:40 ish, my doctor walked into the hospital room, immediately got ready (along with the NICU nurses and a few other delivery nurses) and within MINUTES had me ready to push. As my first contraction started, I pushed... then I pushed once more and the baby's head was free! But then everyone started freaking out and telling me to stop. The cord was wrapped around her neck twice. They cut it off of her right there and told me to push with all my might... so I did. One more push (during that same first contraction) had the baby completely out. Grace May Turner was born at 8:48 pm on November 9, 2009.

The drama doesn't end there, but the rest of that evening is still somewhat of a blur and a really scary/sad memory for me. There were periods of feeling lonely because Ryan was with the baby in the NICU and I was by myself... there were periods where nobody would come tell me what was happening with the baby... but mostly I was simply in shock over what had just happened. I couldn't believe that all of that had happened within 5 hours! I was a new mommy, who had only seen her baby girl for about 5 total seconds before they rushed her off. I was too overwhelmed with worry and sadness and heart break to even enjoy it.

But good news is all that follows that story... because every single day Grace continues to show more and more improvement! They've taken her off of the oxygen, and only have an IV for the antibiotics and some other nutrients they are giving her. I've been able to feed her every 3 hours during the day (although she's not doing too great with nursing yet). I feel like she truly knows who Ryan and I are when we are near her and she'll sit and look at us with her beautiful eyes. She even made faces at me this morning and there are hints of dimples in her cheeks! We'll see when she gets some fat on her bones!